My Son's Testimony

If you have been reading my blog you know that God has been dealing with me a lot on the issue of trusting Him, especially with my family. Last Wednesday the kids were down for the night, when all of a sudden my son started crying and I mean really crying, we ran to his room to see what was the matter and all he would say was he hurt, as he sat on my lap I tried to get him to tell me what hurt, and all he would do is cry. Thinking it was probably a upset stomach I ran out to get him some Seven-Up, when I got back he was still crying, my wife said she thought his stomach felt really hard and thought maybe it was appendicitis, as I sat on the chair holing him and praying, I'll be honest there was a real battle going on in my head, was it appendicitis or just a tummy ache, I kept trying to get him to tell me what hurt but his eyes seemed a little glassy and he just couldn't seem to focus enough to answer he just kept crying. As I rocked him and prayed for him after about thirty minutes he dozed off but he wasn't asleep for more than five minutes before he was up crying again over and over this went on fifteen to thirty minutes of crying, a few minutes of sleep. A few times his breathing got really raspy like he was having a asthma attack. By midnight I was really struggling I can't explain all that I was feeling but when your holding your son knowing something is wrong, but no idea what, your mind begins to work overtime. And as I prayed for him, a battle raged in my mind, should I take him to the hospital, or trust God totally for his healing. I'll be honest that this should probably be a easy question, but in light of the churches (myself included) track record it wasn't. I kept thinking we prayed for mom, we prayed for Malachi, and yet they were not healed. as this battle was going on in my head another one was going on in my heart, for the last few weeks I had been studying the story of Abraham and Isaac, and how Abraham so totally trusted God with his son. What I was going through was nothing like what God asked of Abraham but let me tell you the battle inside me over whether or not I would trust God with my son was still intense. Would I trust God with my son no matter what happened, would I choose to love God and follow Him even if the unthinkable happened. I know this all probably sounds crazy, I didn't even know there was something seriously wrong with my son so why I was even thinking thoughts like this I'm not sure, but what I know was that at two in the morning these thoughts were very real. As I prayed I began to pour my heart out to God, I told Him I loved Him that I would choose to trust Him no matter what, that I believed He was the Lord our healer, that I knew the fear wasn't from Him but it was still very real for me. I told Him how much I loved and needed my son and that I really wanted to believe, I asked Him to increase my faith to help me with my unbelief. I told Him that I knew He was not only able to heal my son but willing to heal him and that even though I didn't have all the answers for why mom and Malachi were not healed, I trusted His Word. I have no idea what was wrong with my son, all I know was he spent most of the night crying, that he would go from burning up to being cold, that one minute he wanted to be held and the next minute he didn't want anything touching him, that at times he sounded like he was having a asthma attack and sometimes it was a struggle to get him to focus when I asked him a question. I have no idea if it was something very serious or not, but this is what I know I have never been as scared for my family as I was that night, and what I know is that in those hours between midnight and four in the morning, my son needed a healing and I needed God and He gave us both exactly what we needed! Praise God we both fell asleep sometime after four and the next day my son was tired but all the symptoms were gone, whether it was something serious or not doesn't matter to me, but as for me and my family we will continue to praise God because we are forever grateful for God's healing touch big or small. THANK YOU JESUS !!!!