7 weeks ago (pt3)

okay, so seven weeks ago is now more like 9 weeks ago, I've had a few friends tell me my posts are so long it takes them a few days to get through them. So I'm trying to give them a chance to catch up between posts, but since that night God has been teaching me so much and doing such a incredible work in my heart it's hard to keep up in this post. I didn't know I could be more challenged than I was after that night as God asked me if I could die for Him, but then as i was listening to a song by Jeff and Sherri Easter called "I Just Wanted You to Know" I was challenged even further I began to look at the story of Abraham again Genesis 22:2-3 "And he said, Take now thy son, thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of. And Abraham rose up early in the morning, and saddled his ass, and took two of his young men with him, and Isaac his son, and clave the wood for the burnt offering, and rose up, and went unto the place of which God had told him."
A week ago I asked myself if I could stand up for Jesus if they were gonna hurt my kids if I didn't deny Him, did I love Jesus that much was I that committed to Him, but what if God Himself asked me what He asked of Abraham? Now remember although Abraham believed God could raise Isaac from the dead, unlike you and me he didn't know the end of the story like we do, he actually went in obedience expecting to sacrifice his son. And even more challenging is this statement "and Abraham rose up early in the morning..." Abraham didn't wait, he didn't argue, He immediately moved in obedience. God asks me to give up little unimportant things and it still takes me weeks to obey at times. Let me give you a example, I have strong convictions about witchcraft, I believe that the bible is very clear on what God thinks about it, so I choose not to watch movies like harry potter or play games like dungeons & dragons, or world of warcraft. Then one day someone challenged me they told me I was being legalistic, that there was a great mission field in the game, so I tried a similar game called last chaos and I loved it, I got to share my faith with people on a almost daily basis and since my character was not a magical one I told myself it was okay, I even called a accountability partner and asked him if he thought it was okay, and he said it was okay even gave me a bible verse. (though to be fair I think I misrepresented the game to him I downplayed the magic in the game and told Him about the mission field, I just wanted to have him say it was okay so I could ignore the nagging in my conscience, since then he has challenged me and encouraged me to quit the game) But every time I played it there was a small voice questioning me after months of disobedience I quit the game, I still miss it and hoped I would find out I was just being legalistic as a matter of fact I have kept it on my computer until now. (I am uninstalling it as I write this) I believe with everything in me that God is calling His children out, that He is asking us to be different, I believe that the church in America has been largely lukewarm at best. That we (myself included) have played with the devils toys, watched the devils movies, listened to the devils music, and then wondered why we need man made programs to power the church, why there is little or no evidence of Holy Ghost power in our lives and churches and this is one of the reasons we still love the world and not only love the world but many times love the world more than we love God James 4:4 "Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God." I have a long way to go, giving up "last chaos" is a long way from what God asked of Abraham but I pray from now on I'll obey with instant obedience and that with Gods help I'll be ruthless at getting rid of everything in my life that displeases God. So He can say of me the same thing He told Abraham Genesis 22:12 "And he said, Lay not thine hand upon the lad, neither do thou any thing unto him: for now I know that thou fearest God, seeing thou hast not withheld thy son, thine only son from me."