Please agree in prayer with me

Father I am asking you to heal completely baby Malachi your word says I am the Lord that healeth thee(Ex 15:26), by whose stripes you were healed (Is 53:5 and 1 Pet 2:24) who healeth all thy diseases (Ps 103:3) what things soever you desire, when you pray believe that ye recieve them and ye shall have them (Mk 11:24) and this is the confidence we have if we ask anything according to his will we know that he heareth us and if we know that he hear us whatsoever we ask we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him(1 Jn 5:14-15) So Father knowing that you keep your promises (Num 23:19) we are asking in Jesus name for a complete and total healing for baby Malachi and we thank you for that father choosing to walk by faith and not by sight In the precious name of Jesus by whose stripes we are healed we ask this Amen and Amen

Happy Birthday Mom

I'm not old enough to be a grandma, she'd say,
But you would have been fifty today
so many things have changed since you went away
and we miss you more than words could ever say

Kasandra started school this year
yes I came close to shedding a tear
Isaiah, well he is daddy's little man
and yes he is already a football fan

they are growing so fast you know
i wish you were here to see them grow
there are so many things I wish you could see
how proud of them you would be

Kasandra still asks me why you live so far away
and honestly I still don't know what to say
Mom she gave Jesus her heart
so you won't always be apart

and I admit it's still really hard for me
knowing Isaiah never got to crawl up on your knee
I tell him about the grandma he never knew
and how much i miss you

Sara is still the love of my life
and the worlds greatest, most beautiful wife
most importantly Jesus continues to draw me near
and continues to work on me down here
so until we meet again I just wanted to say
mom I love you and Happy Birthday

what I am struggling with

thanksgiving is over (hopefully just the holiday and not the lifestyle) what a crazy couple of days it was. I was/am struggling with so many questions at the moment, I told myself I would keep them to myself this holiday weekend. And I really did try, almost succeeded too, but both days i ended up asking someone some of the questions I was struggling with, yes I know most of my friends have heard them all a hundred times already (sorry guys). Honestly I can't put into words what I'm going through (and yes I know that God knows) something is happening inside of me, something I can't explain. I have always had questions but never like this, I'm not questioning if there is a God, or if Jesus is God, I know that Jesus is God, that the bible is His divinely inspired word to us. And my questions are not fueled by my "antagonistic" or "abrasive" personality, there is such a discontentment with in me over the complacency I both feel and see. I understand this great and simple truth "Jesus loves me this I know" and I am so grateful and amazed at His love for me, and yet if that is all there is then why do we have five hundred bazillion different denominations. Is it really enough to just be sincere or can you be sincerely wrong? I am told all the time too stop questioning, stop making it so difficult, and I have tried, really really tried, but I can't seem to stop. at times the desire to know, to be all that God calls, and desires me to be is so intense. I can't put it onto words, but I cannot seem to shake this driving, burning feeling that there is more, and yet at other times it seems so easy to let my flesh win. Yes I know that there is a lot (and I man a LOT) of spiritual immaturity in me, but I want to grow, I want to be like Jesus, and if some people are right and I am exactly where God wants me to be then why this discontentment, if all responsibility is on Gods shoulders to drag us kicking and screaming to maturity why is obedience important? If obedience is important than is it important to obey correct doctrine, or just obey something? If correct doctrine is important then what is correct doctrine , because all the doctrines in the churches can't all be right, some of them are polar opposites? And the questions go on and on, but really what I want to know is what would Jesus do, what would Jesus believe, how do I have the relationship with God that He died to provide? I don't want to know truth so I can merely "be right" or win arguments I want to know so it can change my life, I want the truth of Gods word to transform into the image of His dear Son. I want to be like Jesus, not just talk about being like Him. Yes I know that God is the only one who has some of these answers and I need to go to Him alone for them. I actually began this post to share that last night I read "No Compromise" the biography of Keith Green, I couldn't put it down (I finished it at 5:00 this morning) I was challenged like I've rarely been challenged and yet encouraged, as the tears streamed down my face at the tragic yet victorious ending of the book. I am not Keith Green, thankfully God has not called me to be, God has called me to be Nick, but I want to have a Passion for God like he had, I don't want a nice clean religion I want a relationship with God that permeates every area of my life I want to be absolutely and completely sold out to God. And by Gods grace that is exactly what I am going to seek Him for!