okay to be me

Praise God, now I could follow that with hundreds of reasons why but I think we should praise Him because he is worthy and really not need any more reason than that, however God in his goodness continually gives us reasons to continue to praise Him above and beyond the fact that He is totally worthy. And one of the many reasons God gives us to praise Him is His amazing love for us it is true that God loves us just the way we are but, it is just as true that He doesn't leave us that way. (now there's a great reason to praise Him) He is continually working in us to conform us into the image of His dear Son. And I am so grateful that He never gives up on me no matter how many times I get in his way or hinder His work in me by dragging my feet or arguing with Him about how much the change will hurt or cost. He keeps loving me, teaching me, and leading me to the life He wants me to live. So now that I've turned this opening into it's own entry let me share what I really wanted to share this morning. I woke up today with a couple realizations, first I'm getting older, my body was pretty sore from the football game yesterday. More importantly as I was talking to God and attempting to quiet my heart to hear from Him I had such a feeling of Love sweep over me as God reminded me of how much He loves me. And as I rested in that love God showed me what He's been trying to teach me these last few weeks that it's okay to be me,that He made me exactly the way He wanted me and that He doesn't make mistakes. Let me back up for a moment I'm a questioner, always have been. I have questions on top of questions, I have questions about questions and when I find an answer to one it usually leaves me with five or six new questions. My head just seems to work different than so many of my friends (if my wife was reading this right now she'd say a loud amen to that) some people look at life as half full and others as half empty I wonder why it can't be full or if it can be full why we settle for only half full. some people look at things the way they are and wonder why, I look at things as they could be and wonder why there not. Sometimes driving my friends and loved ones crazy with my "what ifs" , "why not's" and bazillion other questions. And sometimes it's left me feeling all alone wondering if I'm the only one with these questions, wondering if there's something wrong with me why can't I just accept things the way they are. Ive been like this my whole life, as a kid I was full of questions and not the ones like how a radio works or why leaves change colors, I can remember as a pre-teen driving my parents crazy with questions like "why did a all-powerful God allow a innocent child to be abused, or a young lady to be taken advantage of?" and as I've gotten older the questions haven't gotten easier. But this morning God showed me He loves me He made me this way that He is big enough for any and every one of my questions. That as my Heavenly Father He is okay with me coming to Him a thousand times a day with "Father I have a question" actually He is more than okay with it He longs for it. That He created me to be exactly who I am to ask all these question and in my search for answers I will always find Him, because He is the Ultimate Answer, He is Truth, and He has a great plan for my life and it starts with ..."come and learn of me..." . So today I'm gonna praise Him, I'm gonna praise Him because He is worthy, and I'm going to celebrate being loved by God, Being "fearfully and wonderfully made"(Ps. 139:14) , I'm going to live in the freedom to be exactly who God made me to be, I'm going to rejoice that He has a plan for my life and He is "working in me both to will and to do His good pleasure"(phillip. 2:13) And I'm gonna run with joy the race that has been set out for me, I'm gonna answer Jesus call to "come and follow me". And since God said it was okay, I"m gonna just be me.